Reflective essay on your work

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Art is my passion and at first I wanted to become ‘a great artist.’ That was my wish when I was 10 years old, when I saw a beautiful painting of a ballerina. Our assignment for today was to draw something about Christmas break. Each student got a different word, using the definition of the word to combine it with your work. The point was to try something different than we have done before. “Oeuvre”, is the body of work of the artist or an author, or simply a work of art. I was very happy to get this term because it is the kind of word to which anyone can relate too. I decided to use a big black sharpie to make the edges of the line appear rougher, since I usually love to draw with thin and fine lines.

What I did during My Christmas break is that I created my own working space in my old brothers room that is no longer being used . My brother is still living in Holland so it wasn’t a problem. My drawing was about the fact that I spent my entire Christmas break drawing and sketching everything that I found inspiring when I was a teenager, now that I finally have time to do it. My drawing is actually quite simple, but I loved it and I’m pretty sure that from it I can create another amazing drawing. On the drawing I drew myself sitting in the center in a yoga or mediating like pose. My face is relaxed and content, and you see several drawings floating around, connected by wires to me. With various drawings floating around me, in the background I added a door which represents ‘the exit.’ The door also depicts where I’ve come from; the university and eventually at IBB, whenever I’m being creative I forget about my surroundings and I focus on my work until I’m finished. I decided to rip off the sharp edges of my drawings because it made my work look too edgy and perfect, so I wanted to remove that look.

I sketched new things, redrew old drawings using my improved skills, and used references on the side to help me when I need it. Its fun to explore when you have your own work space. I used to have my working supplies in a box and stowed away in my closet, and they will be unused until I needed them. Putting my art supplies away in a box makes my inspiration harder to find. Sometimes I ended up buying things I already have. I felt empty when I saw my old abandoned works, which I had put aside to make time for my studies . I always loved and admired other artist for having their supplies neatly organized, racks on racks right next to their desk. These are usually professional artist working in their office, often crammed with plenty of coloring pencils, brushes, pencils, markers and paint tubes. I didn’t have enough space in my room, but what I didn’t notice is that these artist working space isn’t necessarily their bedroom. It wasn’t until I was at IBB I realized I could simply move into a new room and use that as an Atelier.

Stressed and tired of hours studying, I used to see art as a cash cow and quickly make money during my teen years. This idea has gotten worse after my car accident in 2007. I was a student at VSBO Marnix college. Ever since this accident, I slowed down with painting. After hours of working on a painting my shoulder starts hurting a lot, and to make it worse, I had to study on so I wouldn’t fall behind with school work. Because of this, I eventually started cartooning, working for the Amigoe news paper. Without thinking I jumped into a career I knew very little about, eager for having a job in art. Again I had to struggle combining school and my art lifestyle. I was interviewed three times during my stint as a cartoonist. My first interview was online by Carolina Gomez –Caresses of 1000awesomethingsofCuracao, my second was at Go Weekly, my third at Hoben Posetivo. Usually I dislike talking about this type of things because I’m afraid life would jinx it, I dislike showing off. But hiding and keeping things to myself also limited myself greatly. I was interviewed once again after winning third place for a coffee shop challenge. However, In the end, I had to stop working for the newspaper.

The reason why it is important for me is that my only focus now is to express myself and rebuild my world that I have left behind. Now I no longer worry about being good or being paid for what I make, but simply create as much as I can. My experiences opened my eyes and I no longer focus on what I get in return, but simply my development. IBB saved my life, and of course anything I have studied before paid off as well. All this time, I was finding myself and I didn’t know I was lost. I notice some first year students already became second year students, I now my goal is to work even harder so I can develop my art and working process.

Ethany Martina

One thought on “Reflective essay on your work

  1. It is very usfull frogram .but encarege yong artists. By I jangaiah polepogu contemporary artists in India. Telangan.

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